.... !!!!!!!..........

I loved rain, you took the wetness away,
I loved flowers, you took the fragrance away,
I loved mountains, you took the greenery away,
I loved storms, you took the thunder away,
I loved music, you took the melody away,
I loved to write, you took the thoughts away,
I loved to dream, you took the sleep away,
I loved emotions, you took the heart away,
I loved to live life, you took the soul away,
I was silent,
Everyone blamed you took so many things away,
You whispered “ I just took the love away”
I am still silent !!!!

THE SCREAMING SILENCE!!!

Finally the silent stagnancy phase of life, which was bothering few weeks back has vanished with such a tragic unimaginable happening…. And it has to be the demise of our so nice innocent and good friend !!!! GOD…..WHY?????

GOD…Why can’t you tolerate innocent and nice people on earth? Why do you always need good people around you? You have the power with you to take away anyone, anytime you wish.... Does that mean you will take away the only child of the parents whom they had nurtured and brought up for 23 long years!!!

If everything you do is good for mankind, then why don’t you clear the reason for your this choice? Why you want to remain mysterious by all these deeds? What good reason was there to take away a single child, single brother of his sisters and only son of the family?

Dont know why sometimes life becomes stagnant, Stagnant life seems like a still ocean..which never ends ,never moves, never breaths. Is there any specific reason for this motionless periods of our life which recycles in our life after certain intervals ? What really this periods try to teach us?

Let me try to console myself by analyzing this by few reasons, which may be true or may not be..

• Sometimes we run towards some targets assuming it as our goal / aim.But may be actually due to some of our confused decision of life we start believing it as our goal. And then after a long run our life becomes stagnant just to stop us to give it a thought.

• Or may be we are on the right path, but due to the intense urge to reach our goal, we stop giving time to our own self, our soul, our existence and then our inner self stops and knocks us to make us realize its presence.

• Or may be this stagnancy has nothing to do with our wrong or right path..Its just an indication to do something more out of life..to explore ourselves more, which we usually or always neglect in our daily routine life.
  

• Or is it something else? The intense silence before a devastating cyclone.
  

But whatever may be the reason for this stagnancy its very difficult to find out the right and actual reason. Can someone help me please?

The Silent Scream

I run all day chasing ghosts my situation's so tense,

but then i feel your pristine presence,

breaking the spell of this deafening silence.

I wanna express myself, spill out my feelings,

words are endless, but i can't present myself in a sentence,

you are so true, so pure, i have lost control on my conscience.

Please try to hear to my unspoken words, you are the soul of my existence,

if you are gone, this world makes no sense.

you give me the strength, you are the angel's essence.

With you i neither remember my past nor fear the future, all that i have is you and the gift prevailing in this mystical present-tense.

{This poem is written by Rohan Jagdale (My Bro)}

NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCES

Listed below are a number of the common elements that fit a general profile for the near death experience. Some people have reported all of them, while others, only a few.

1. A feeling of peace and quiet overcomes them, a cessation of pain at this point, floating out of their body, seeing the room they are in.

2. Suddenly they are drawn through a dark tunnel accompanied by a loud noise.

3. They see friends, family, other people, or angel types who welcome them and help them along while comforting them.

4. At the end they reach the light and encounter a being of light that makes them feel loved and unafraid.

5. At this point they have a life review, where every detail of their life is recalled. There is no judgment, only understanding what and why.

6. They reach a boundary or border over which they cannot pass. They learn many things and see and hear beautiful things, some of which are forgotten when they return.

7. Some are given the option to return, while others are told they must return because it is not their time. Those that refuse to return are ejected and they return to their bodies reluctantly.

8. Disappointment upon return, pain, if present before, returns, sometimes depression.

9. Transformation takes place in their lives, more spiritual, less materialistic and religious. No longer afraid of death. Some talk about it, while others keep it to themselves.

Surprise Birthday Party

2nd September 2006. We were planning for the preparation of next day’s celebration. We includes me, my sister Twinkle and few of her close friends who were part of every small or big happenings of our house.

Now let us see what we all were planning for... 3rd September happens to be birthday of Pralay. And we all were planning for a small surprise party for him. The plan was some what like this….. We all would wish him happy birthday sharp at 12 at night. But no one will give any gift, when we would meet him next day. Then in the afternoon, I would take him out for regular shopping and return home around 6 p.m. By this time Twinkle and her friends would decorate our living room with balloons, colorful glittering ribbons and other decorative items. There would be one large red balloon hanging on at the center of the room filled with glittered dust and few small chocolates, which would be blasted at the time of cake cutting. A nice cake would be arranged wishing him happy birthday. And when we would return back in the evening, I would bring him at our home for this surprise. As instructed Twinkle would open the door. The room would be dark. And as we enter and switch on the lights, the whole crowd, who would be hiding in the dark before opening the door would scream together wishing him happy birthday. And then the usual process of cutting cake and celebration would start.

Though it was a very usual and an ordinary surprise birthday party, but isn’t it a beautiful planning for the one who didn’t expect it at all? Now let us see how it was executed… We all wished him “Happy Birthday” at the midnight. Next day though he expected some gift specially from me, but didn’t find any. Bit offended, but couldn’t show up the disappointment. As planned we went out for shopping in the afternoon. As he expected I bought a shirt and a belt for him which he thought was his gift for the very day. Then to kill more time (because I was to reach home not before 6 p.m.) we sat down in the small café of CCD, which was arranged there for tired customers while shopping. Then went to Oxford gallery and then roamed around here and there in the market. Then assuming jam on the road (which is quiet obvious on the roads of Kolkata), I started for home with him.

The blunders started now onwards…. We didn’t find any jam on the road and we reached early in our area. On reaching to our area I managed to make some distance from Pralay and called up Twinkle. As she picked up the call I could hear lots of noise of her friends at the backend and came to know that we can arrive there after 15 minutes, as they were not over with the decorations yet. By this time dad was back home and he had also lend his hand with them. I had to take Pralay to a nearby cosmetics shop to spend another 15 minutes and had to spend some money uselessly. Then after 15 minutes we reached home, as Pralay was very tired and I was not able to convince him anymore to stay out, though I was quiet sure that the group out there would not be over with their work and Pralay would easily guess something was on there.

When we reached home, the happenings were as under….

1. There was whole lot of noise coming out from the house which made very clear to Pralay that something was going on inside.
2. We had to wait for 10 minutes outside the house listening to all those dangerous noise (dangerous because we heard something or someone fell down followed by a scream)
3. Before opening the door they switched off the lights, which was from the ventilator and they all were screaming on each other to keep quiet as they were hiding themselves in the dark room.

4. When Twinkle opened the door and she looked exhaust (because she was the one who fell down from the tool while placing a bunch of balloons)

5. As planned they all screamed wishing Happy Birthday to Pralay, which was no more a surprise then.

Every one started laughing as we settled down on the sofa. Pralay said he had expected the arrangement of cake but not the decorations which provided little consolation on our failure of the execution of plan. Sumit (a friend of Twinkle) found a beautiful candle which was a plastic lotus with closed petals and would play the music of birthday song as the candle gets lightened. There was an ‘Agarbatti’ given with the candle, which all of us had ignored. Then the celebration started followed by the next blunders….

6. Sumit tried to light the lotus candle with another ordinary candle but it didn’t respond and maintained its own high standard of being different. Then some more people present in the room tried to lighten the candle in their own ways by matchsticks, lighter and all and rest of them carried on with their suggestions. But every time it ignored all our efforts. Then few of us noticed the “Agarbatti” and thought it may have some importance and we should give a try with it. Sumit lighted the “Agarbatti” and handed over to me, which I placed at the centre of the closed petals of lotus and then all of a sudden a colorful fountain of fire came out from it which made me and some friends close to me scream out due to the sudden explosion. Then the petals of the lotus opened slowly and the beautiful soft music of “Happy Birthday to you” kept playing from somewhere inside it with tiny pink candles on each petal which were lightened at the time of the explosion.

7. After so much stress of lighting the candle we proceeded to cake cutting ceremony, when suddenly someone among us reminded us about the balloon which was to be blasted. Sumit arranged a needle tried to blast it, but the needle went inside the balloon very smoothly and air started to leak from it. Then Diwakar and Jonny (2 more friends of sister) tried it again and again leaking the balloon more and more. Every time the balloon smiled at all of us and its size went on decreasing slowly. Now Pralay came into action and held his hand up with a lighted candle at the bottom of the balloon and yet the balloon denied to blast. Finally Dad asked Sumit to press it with hands and blast it and as Sumit did that, all the glittered dust with chocolates fell on him (little bit scattered on nearby people) and the dust was stuck on his sweated face and hands which he tried to transfer on others by rubbing his hands on others.
8. Then the cake was cut and rest of the celebration was smoothly completed by applying chocolates on each other’s faces and followed by enjoying other snacks arranged for the very day.


So this was surprise birthday party for Pralay, but turned out to be surprise party for all of us. Though things were not placed according to the plan, but the way it had been placed, brought more colors to the celebration. Never saw dad laughing like this before and we all were on the verge of heart attack due to the laughter created by all those blunders and we all had ache in our stomachs. The party turned out to be more enjoyable than it was expected and became memorable for all of us. As per Pralay it was his best Birthday celebration ever till date and that very feel of his brought the true success of the party.

LIFE

“ LIFE IS ABOUT CREATING YOURSELF,
NOT SEARCHING YOURSELF”

Yes, very true, but “ What is life?”

When we land up in this world, we are all the same, like a new born of a bird or any other animal. But as we grow up, we start learning new activities, we develop new habits, we gain the ability to think and thus we understand that we are human beings. And like this eventually we grow up as an individual personality.

But the amazing deed of nature is, that we all carry different personality….Millions of people, but each of them holds different thoughts and posses different likings. And it’s our thought, which makes us different from one another.

‘THOUGHTS’ …. One single word carries millions of words and their millions of meanings within itself. It can change a person into beast from human and vice versa. But again, only one single word can provide high positive value/ weigh to the word ….. that is ‘LOVE’.

They say love is blind. That’s true…may be because love makes you see things not through your eyes, but through your soul…may be because it makes you think not by using your brain, but by using your heart…may be because it makes you feel others problems or pain not by sympathy, but by empathy.

The immense pain of love drives you to the depth of eternity, where you find a new world meant only for you, where you play with your own feelings, where you directly get in touch with GOD and then you realize that the pain which was bothering you so badly was just an illusion. All that remains always with you is the true self of “YOU” inside. You get to know yourself now. You get to know that you are a part of GOD only and the pain borne by you was simultaneously borne by GOD. And that through this pain GOD wanted you to discover your own existence.

Now lets go back to the material world again. WOWWWWWWW….. Can you see the beautiful nature? The green trees, the wet grass, the blue sky, the vast ocean, the colorful flowers, the surprising yet beautiful creatures of this nature…. GOD is visible everywhere around you, and it was always there, but earlier you were unable to trace his existence and used to run to the temple or gurudwara or church or masjid to search for him.

Would it be possible for you now to walk away coldly if you see an accident on your way? Would it be possible for you to hide yourself when you see someone being murdered? Would it be possible for you to turn your face away from that little dirty, hungry boy standing beside you when you are enjoying the delicious taste of ‘bhelpui’ or ice-cream?

Here you are…. You can’t do that again. You have already created yourself .